Want Bread or Bread of Life?

Psalm 27:35 (ESV)

"I have been young, and now am old,
yet I have not seen the righteous forsaken
or his children begging for bread."

This Scripture was seriously in my daily reading today.  It jumped out at me for two reasons:  1.)  My signature is "Not forsaken," to remind me that no matter what, God will not forsake me and this verse confirms that truth; and 2.)  It has my favorite food group in the verse:  BREAD!  

It's only Day 2 and I am seriously craving some sort of bread or even a tortilla chip, but I have refrained with the LORD's strength.  Last night (Wed night), I weighed myself for the first time in a long time and also did measurements.....I am seriously 2 people and I was horrified at the numbers.  It's one thing to know you are fat and a totally different reality to actually know the numbers.  I wrote the numbers down in my notebook that I am documenting what I eat, my thoughts, etc.  Every time I had a craving that just would not subside, I looked at those numbers and it disturbed me enough to lose my appetite.

Jesus referred to Himself as the Bread of life....we cannot do life without Him, without surrendering daily (sometimes  over and over again in one day) to Him.  I feel like I cannot live without bread and the truth is, I cannot live without the Living Bread....the bread that gives life, not the one that I set up as an idol and lust after.  I am thankful that even though it has only been 2 days, I have been faithful with God's help.  However, I must confess that a part of me is looking forward to church Sunday for that sorry little pinch of bread dipped in grape juice just so I can have a small taste of bread.  Don't get me wrong I love church, and LOVE God's Word, but my heart leapt with a crazy joy that I get a little tiny bite of bread every Sunday with communion.  Yes, I am THAT desperate for bread.....so very sick, which brings me to this reminder:

Jeremiah 17:9 (ESV)

"The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately sick;

who can understand it?"